Here We GO !!!!!!!!
The day that I had been anticipating for a few months had finally arrived. Monday, The first day of my final working week in the U.K. Now as it happens the whole week went by and sure there was plenty of well wishes and handshakes but as I left work for the final time I had that anticlimax feeling. I have only been with the company two and a half years so I wasn’t expecting a gold watch or nothing, .however, perhaps it was me but things seemed a little too underwhelming. That feeling only lasted but a few moments before a little wry smile took over
It`s Sunday ….. MY very LAST Sunday in the UK .. HEHEHE.. I HAVE STARTED TO PACK… I now am in full on excited mode . It`s actually finally happening . It`s like the whole ambiance has changed . It feels mighty good too. There is nothing in my week ahead that is going to be remotely taxing or stressful apart from seeing my girls for the last time but that aside I AM READY . I can honestly say I have no fear, apprehension,reluctance or any other negativity about doing this. Is this wrong ? Should I be feeling something other than happiness and positivity for the future ? I don`t know. My way of thinking is that if I wasn’t feeling how I am now, 100% sure this is the right thing for me, Then I probably shouldn’t do it but as it is I welcome my future with hooting horns ,flags, lots of whooping it up and of course open arms.
Well I have to say where did this week go? Don’t get me wrong. Considering when I look back at how slow time has seemed to pass leading up to this point , especially May, I am certainly not complaining. It has been a pretty easy week all round if I`m honest. Work has been nice and steady and my work colleagues seem to be, Oh I don`t know, anticipating my departure from the work place fold as it were. The few months leading up to now I found a little tedious due to the fact the same people were asking the same questions day in day out. Questions like, how long now ? What date ya going ? Are you nervous ? And so on . It`s changed now , and I have to say It`s quite heartwarming when I hear .. Only one more week Lanky .. Gunna be sorry to see you leave .. I wish I was you .. Comments like those make up for all those that I got fed up of hearing.. With my final working week ahead of me I can already sense a tinge of sadness brewing inside. As jobs go I`ve come to realize with my current job, A Job isn’t just a Job. I have enjoyed the last two and a half years that I`ve been employed in my current job. Yes it`s had its moments and the pay was never enough but the people I`ve worked with and a few of the customers I deliver to and have gotten to know really well I shall miss and hold a certain fondness for ..
Two more Fridays and I take flight, however its to Friday next and the preceding week that await me . Trying to anticipate how it will go is probably not a good idea I think. Instead I shall try to appreciate it for what it will be, Enjoying the well wishes, answering the questions , shaking a few hands , getting a few hugs, and then finally departing on Friday with nothing but fond memories of a good job and the good people I have been fortunate to meet and befriend .
Oh one thing tho I wont have to do, as I did today, is sweat as I sit in the nurses office watching her draw my final MMR booster vaccine from it`s vile into the syringe via a 3 inch needle. I KID NOT .. I couldn’t resist pointing out, more from fear I might add , that the last injection was with a smaller needle. The nurse started to laugh saying don’t be silly this one is only to draw it into syringe, I will replace it with a smaller one for the injection. Trust me I was thank full for being silly.
With D-Day fast approaching I find myself reflecting on the last 3 years in what can only be described as an “Incredible” period in the Life of LankyBritt . There have been many up`s and tho it`s not been totally a perfect path the down`s have been few in number.
What we had here at first was an “Internet Relationship” Two people falling for each other separated only by the void between their two internet connected PC`s. At first that’s all that was needed it was good enough at that time it was all dandy .. However as the relation ship grew so did the realization that the void was actually 3,800 miles worth of void with an awful lot of water in too , Living in the same country would have been a good start but half a world apart, 5 hour time difference all makes for a very not ideal start for any relationship.
So as to the question “Do INTERNET RELATIONSHIPS Work ?” I feel very qualified to answer so here is my Opinion. First off the obvious answer is Yes they can but in reality most fail . Most fail before the very first make or break factor even happens . They never get to meet in real life. Starting off as friends without any idea of having a relationship, talking sharing your most inner thoughts ,discussing your skeletons, laying your life bare as it were, your fears hopes and aspirations is what I think helped myself and D`Ma get where we are today , It’s not easy by any stretch tho .. It wasn’t until we first met that I was 100% sure that we had at least a slim chance and that I was happy to go forward . Spending that first visit with D`Ma cemented the bond between us for me it was a very special and significant time .. IT CERTAINLY DIDN’T BREAK US .
We have had a couple of make or break events where either one of us could have said Game Over , but our respect understanding for each other as basic human beings to start with, both wanting the same things, Understanding a partnership means equality , has helped us move forward resolve issues and come out stronger .. I`M not afraid to say I`v e learned much from D`Ma about myself that I can only thank her for .
The hardest part had to be the Visa process , The waiting , The fears of refusal, The whole process caused us both a great deal of stress and frustration , That time alone would see the end to a lot of relationships in my opinion but we both look back now and think how hard we made it on ourselves but we never blamed each other we did what we had to do to pull each other thru the hard
My worst month was definitely May .. THAT MONTH WENT ON FOR EVER and ever and ever , My patients have never been so tortured n tested .. I was craving June to begin sooo badly as I wanted to give my months notice to My employer that I was leaving at end of June. Every day for the whole period of our visa application I would get questions from work mates .. any news yet .. when ya going … I`m sure they must have thought I was making it all up.
I am now here tho at this point D-Day +3 Two weeks left at work 3 week before I depart Excited , Hungry ,Eager definitely, fear,reservations,anxiety not a shred … BRING IT FRIGGIN ON !